It was the end of 2025. I was about to write my last journal entry for the year when it clicked, “I wonder what I had written last year on the same day.” Basically, I wanted to reflect on my goals for 2025 before starting 2026.
I had a hard time finding the old journal. But when I did find it (after going through lots of them), what I read made me feel disgraceful. I couldn’t believe what I had written. The sad part was that the same stuff had been repeating for years, as I figured out after reading some older journals.
Most of us write goals and resolution plans for the new year. I don’t usually make a list. Instead, I write what I experience at that particular time. It’s like an essay called, “My current life situation.” I had written about my relationships, health, career, work life, and more. I’d also mentioned what I wanted in life, but couldn’t achieve.
Failures, successes, emotional states, and aspirations were part of my journal.
In my 2024 year-end journal, I had written how bad my life situation was. I had rambled on about what I couldn’t do and what was missing. It was full of complaints and disappointments. There were a few optimistic viewpoints. But more than eighty percent of them were rants.
The realization that hit me hard
Being completely honest, I had only hit a few of my 2025 targets. I am still struggling to make ends meet in certain areas of my life. Now that I am aware of my thoughts in the previous years, I have come to realize that I had manifested more bad than good.
Let me give you an example. Here’s what I had written in my 2024 year-end note:
I am in a difficult life situation. I can’t seem to make ends meet financially, no matter how much I try. It is exhausting to work hard and still fall short, to watch others move forward while I’m trying to stay afloat. The business is doing well, but not well enough. I want to do more, but I can’t. I am responsible for it because I am not working as hard as I should. So, this year I will be giving it all and fighting for everything I can.
You see, all complaints. And the worst part is that I have done the same thing consistently since 2022.
This year, I did well financially, but not well enough. If I had to summarize my year-end situation, I’d still write something similar to the previous ones.
The biggest realization I had before I even wrote this year’s entry is that I had actually manifested my situation year after year. There is no positivity and optimism in my entries. And it’s not just about the finances. It’s actually worse when it comes to health and personal goals. I only say that I will improve, but I never do.
How you feel repeatedly manifests more of the same feeling
My journal entries reflect my feelings at the time. If my emotions weren’t negative, I wouldn’t have talked about them as much. But since I was struggling, I wrote more about them.
Unfortunately, feeling them consistently and also writing about them were making things worse. I was programming my mind to feel that way over and over again. If someone asked me how my financial situation was (for example), I’d always say I was doing well. But in reality, I knew it was a lie. I couldn’t hide the truth from myself.
When the feelings were the same, the reality became the same.
I had an eye-opening moment when I realized what I had been doing wrong. I knew exactly what was making my life challenging. It was the lack of money, bad health, or struggling relationships. Instead, it was my mindset.
Thinking that I am the victim and I have always struggled was a mistake. Everything felt more negative than positive. Instead of thinking about how things could change (and believing in myself), I had been dwelling on how things were.
You manifest what you are
If you think you are poor, you will attract poverty. If you think you are unhealthy, you will attract poor health.
That’s a fact, and I just proved it with my own situation.
I wasn’t grateful for what I have. Instead, I was complaining about what I didn’t have. I didn’t write a single sentence to thank the people who helped me become better. I wasn’t grateful to have food, shelter, and people. I surely didn’t speak much about God and His blessings.
That was the problem.
Even when I didn’t have much, I still had some. And I should have been grateful for the little I had.
Even though the reality wasn’t how I wanted, I could have found the positive parts of my life and written about them. But no, I only focused on the negatives, which made me more pessimistic rather than the opposite.
Instead of writing, “I am struggling financially.” I could have said,
“I have been working hard, and the results haven’t shown yet, but I know that my hard work will pay off soon. I can feel it happening. I am grateful for the people I have and for their love and support. I have God with me, watching my every step and blessing me more each time I ask.”
Your current situation is the outcome of how you think, feel, and speak. Even if you aren’t where you want to be, don’t speak negatively. Instead, refocus on the good and talk as if you already are who you want to be. You have nothing to lose.
This year, I am not ranting about anything — no complaints, struggles, and blaming others. I’m focusing on the positives — gratitude, belief, trust, and persistence. I am ready to face the new year with a highly positive and eye-opening point of view.
Happy New Year to all. I hope you focus on the goods this year so that you manifest a better reality.
